As of late I have had a lot on my mind whether I should pursue other channels towards my career path. It’s not that this place hasn’t been warm and welcoming to me, or that this job is bringing my miseries back out onto the surface…but lately, I’ve been convinced that the upgrade is still yet a mountain over from here and now.
But it’s hard because going to a new place means starting over, from scratch almost literally. Moving to a smaller outpost or company would require moving to a much smaller city or town or location, and most likely not having the same benefits as I would be getting here fairly soon.
I guess I just need to refresh my life and just see if there are new and exciting things I can do to pass time or to help perceive the passing of time go faster.
I need to reload myself in things that got me going, things that got me motivated, even if it means reading and reviewing pages upon pages of material I once knew but now have forgotten under the rust.
And I just need to try again, try harder perhaps to make this new life I’ve created more of MY life and call this place Home, more permanent than passing.