I have recently discovered 750 Words where you can write raw, unfiltered, spontaneously into a private sort of online journal. The main purpose is to get things out of your head so that you are calm, and free, and not (as) stressed. Typically done in the morning before you go about your day, it helps you clear your head for the day in front of you. I tried writing everyday but haven’t and well today I only got to 534 words:

Last night was one of the best sleeps I’ve had in a long while. Maybe it’s the way I positioned the right pillows in the right places. It’s so weird how the simplest act of sleeping can have such a big effect on a person’s day. They don’t have the expression of ‘waking up on the wrong side of the bed’ for nothing I guess. But it’s not even just the dreaming part that can make or break your morning, which snowballs throughout your day. But it’s the dead deep sleep part too, the way your body just simply lays there, not doing anything at all; not even dreaming. How your bones and muscles are relaxed the  way they are relaxed can affect how you feel physically in the morning and that directly affects your mood or how you wake up.
I used to use this app, I forget what it’s called exactly now, that graphs your body movement throughout the course of your sleep in a night. You place your iPhone on the bed and the accelerometers in the iPhone can detect movement of your mattress and therefore of your body too, unless maybe if you have one of those magic mattresses. Anyways, it says that the more you move the less deep sleep you get and how when you sleep during the many cycles throughout a night affects your mood in the morning. I don’t remember it perfectly, but it had something to do about waking up during your deep sleep part of the cycle will make you feel groggy and grumpy. And it’s not completely out of our control either, we can choose when and how we sleep and what we sleep on so that our body goes through its rhythms properly.

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Now it’s rainy outside and not windy at all, which is great because the rain shows character. You don’t always want sunshine and blue skies. Sometimes you want the rain to appreciate those great clear days. Plus it’s fun to watch people go about their day in a different setting, a different background. As for me, the rain has a sort of calming effect to me. I’m not really sure how or why that is but it’s true for most people.

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As for what I’m doing today. A whole lot of nothing mixed in with a bit of waiting. Technically I’m on the job because I am on call all week long getting paid to do whatever is going on or not going on. And as much as I like getting paid to do nothing (sometimes), I would much rather do something related to work. Because it fills up your day, as opposed to going completely insane as to not knowing what to do with yourself. There’s a bunch as of this moment: fold a day old laundry, wash the dishes, clean, cook food, eat food, read, write, watch TV shows, study…the list can go on and on. And even though I want stuff to fill up my day, I don’t want to cram everything into that one day. I do like to just sit and do nothing or stare at the ceiling or watch people drive by below.